Sunday, April 29, 2007

 

.:: Mood ::. Changed

Beautiful things always never last. Agree?

It ends when you yearns to have more of it. Why does it always happen at the start only. Painting such beautiful pictures. Making one feel that its how it will be for the rest of the journey. Many a times, deceived is how we felt after awhile.

I thought I found what I want. All of a sudden I realise I was wrong again. Incidents happened for a reason. Causing me to realise the real picture. A dream that was once beautiful now filled with dust and fog.

Sensitive as ever is how I am. Accept me for who I am for I try to accept you as who you are. I speak for a reason for when I don't, its the end of everything. Sharing and communication is an important factor, without this nothing can work out. However, communicating what you felt and yet not being understood is another issue. Being felt as a nuisance is the worst outcome. When this happen, I know my journey has come to an end.

I demand but I am willing to accept your reasoning too. If only the reason is valid enough for me to accept la.

I end this entry for loads of thoughts. I am very tired and I need alot of rest.

Good Night.

Sleepy,
VaL

Posted by Valerie at 10:48 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

 

.:: Mood ::. (-.-)

I have so many things to update but time does not permit me to do so. After clearing all the test required at work. Now I have to clear my papers in SIM. The coming exam is on Monday. =(

Photos that I wish to share are chunk at one corner. Piling up at every single day. I miss blogging with my pictures. And I realise, Bebee is getting better at taking photos lately. What I mean is, he look more natural when he take pictures. Not closing his eyes or having half open eyes. Who say can't train someone to like taking photos and look natural ?

Outings with my OCBC MT mates were fun. Loads of pics were taken. Chilling at Dragonfly, Mono on the last day of our training was real fun. The KTV room is nice & classy, with the big red sofa. Cosy Cosy! Love it. It's also the company that matters the most. They have been going out for drinks real lots recently but I dint join them. This is so unlike me right? Main reason is, I get so tired the following day I can't concentrate at work. So I have to be abit more discipline and sleep early. I sleep as early as 10+pm... For I have to wake up at 6 am if I am going to work from home. Is it because I am getting old thats why I don't have the zest as compared to before. Where have the mighty me gone to? ? Or have I really changed for the better. Nah it's just plain old. Boo hoo hoo.

I am so busy lately, I try to squeeze my tight schedule to spend time with Bebee. In order to do so, I have been staying over at his place at a minimum of 3 to 4 days a week. My parents are getting so used to it, they stop asking me where I went when I return home. :X Of cause, dad still calls me in the wee-hours to check on me but the naughty me always dint pick up. I know it's worrying for him but it's in the wee-hours where I am fast asleep drooling away. Just too lazy to pick up and hear him grumble.

I have no time to watch movies and go shopping. I am so deprived of self-entertainment. Miss meeting up with my friends, chit-chatting over the phone with them or even clubbing. Long time never dance le, I think my bones are getting abit too stiff to do so now.

Give me some entertainment will you?

Yawning,
VaL

Posted by Valerie at 10:22 AM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

 

.:: Mood ::. Courageous

Courage is always important in many aspect. Don't you agree?

Courage is the quality of being fearless, brave or bold, to act in accordance with one's belief especially in spite of criticism.

I choose this a courage card and it says.

" Be bold, and mighty forces will come to your aid. It's time to take that chance, even if it means taking a daring leap into the world.

Drawing this card is a clear indicator that you are moving ahead into new territory and growing in strength.

Courage empowers you to make your dreams come true. The time is right to take intelligent, determined action. Strengthen your resolve, and be all that you can be in spite of resistance.

The word rage is contained in courage. Acknowledge your fierce need to break through old barriers and move on.

Life is not always easy. Bite the bullet and take a chance. Let go of the past mistakes and misgivings and reach for that brass ring in the sky.

It's time to face the issue, or yourself. This card inspires great change and encourage a positive outlook. Leave your fears behind and get on with things.

Know that you are not alone in anything you so. Spirit is with you. Shed the old, embrace the new, and reach for the stars.

Dare to follow you heart. "

It's the best guidance I can have at this very moment.

For I have make a decision and hope its the right thing to do. Forgive me for the sins I have done, will you god?

On another note, the courage to step out of the comfort zone is difficult. I tried stepping out of it and now I am in OCBC with a new bunch of colleagues. They are as fun too and when I start to get used to their presence, I am going to be posted out to the branch in 2 days time. Boo hoo hoo! ! I am gonna miss Jean, Lina and the rest of the fun peeps. Hopefully we will still be bonded after our posting. Stay in contact ya!

Just as you are wondering which branch I am posted to, it's at Kallang, Foch Road - Hoa Nam Building. Darn far la. I am so gonna be tired everyday waking up early and all. The only lucky thing is that my branch hour ends earlier compared to the shopping centre hours. I keep telling myself, they have a reason for posting me there. I pity my colleague who lives in Katong and have to travel all the way to Sembawang, Sun Plaza branch. God must have played a joke on us.

May things be smooth sailing for everyone of us in MT 92. Luv ya peeps.

Luv Luv,
VaL

Posted by Valerie at 2:23 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

 

.:: Mood ::. Emo

I have so much to say yet I am reluctant to type.

All in all, hate it when assumptions are made to indicate I know it all. I do not. The last words said did not indicate it all.

A few things done would have changed everything. I am being an attention-seeker now if you want to put it this way.


The emo button is on. Beware.


><,
VaL

Posted by Valerie at 8:54 PM